20 weeks! And the Baby is......

here is my 20 weeks picture! I have been starting to feel really huge!

So on wednesday i went into my morning doc appointment and it started off terrible! I had hardly any sleep the night before, and my kids refused to wake up when they were suppose to so i was late dropping them off with my mom and late to my appointment, so i had to sit and wait a while to get called back. Then as soon as i got called they took me to the room, took my vitals and the nurse went to go get the doppler. I have been struggling with bladder infections and i have been hurting for a month and the medicine they have been giving me wasn't working. So the nurse comes back in and lays me down, she puts the doppler to my stomach and she can't find the babies heart beat. I haven't felt the baby move yet for the day and i have been hurting more than usual that morning and i began to panic. i was all alone and i tried really hard not to cry. The nurse told me to stay calm and she would get a different doppler because this one might not be working. So i watched her open a brand new one and put the batteries in it and we tried again, and there was no heart beat. 2 minutes of trying to find it i started crying and i couldn't stop for my life. i tried really hard to stay calm. She said she's go get the doc immediately and he would tell me what to do next. He came in and tried to do the doppler again and he couldn't find it either. He said he was going to get his good friend Pam who is an older nurse who is better at the dopplers then anyone. and he would get an order for a blood test to see if i was miscarrying. Nurse Pam comes in and calmed me down for a minute and said if we can't find the heart beat, we are going to do blood work to see my hormone levels then they were going to send me to an emergency ultrasound to check the baby. i calmed down and i laid back on the table and the minute she touched my belly the beautiful strong heart beat bursted out of the speaker! I was so relieved! Then nurse Pam said "There it is! The little stinker was probably hiding from those other 2, but nobody hides from nurse pam!" i loved her! She made me laugh and feel better where the other 2 were just silent and explained nothing! Anyway so they cancelled the blood work and the emergency ultrasound. But he still had to check my cervix and get a sample to test because of the pain i was having, so from what he could tell, i have an infection but he doesn't know what kind. yay..... it's not a bladder infection though, so i guess that is good depending on how bad this other infection is. So he wrote me ANOTHER prescription for an antibiotic, even though they don't know what it is. So i am still in pain and meds aren't working yet. He finally lets me leave and i am going to be late for my ultrasound appointment to find out what i am having! I was really irritated and mad at this guy, but hurried on my way.

So i get to the ultrasound place, i fill out the paperwork and they finally call me back. I answered the ultrasound tech guy's questions about my family, what we were hoping to have and what my predictions were. he said ok well let's find out! So i am so excited to see the baby and find out what i am having! I have been paciently waiting for a week and a half! The guy gets the computer and everything warmed up and ready to go. he doesn't turn the screen towards me at all, so i could only see the screen so much with my one eye. He took some pictures as he was measuring the head and heart heart, the bladder, kidneys, and all those good things! Then all of a sudden he says, "oh look watch here is the face, see it will open and close it's mouth in a minute" we watched the baby suck on it's hand and squirm around. it was amazing from what i could see anyway. He moved on and showed me the heart pumping, all 4 chambers were working! So good to see that! The he says he wants to show me the face, so he found the head and got the baby to turn and i saw the little skull, he took some more pictures and said, "oh SHE doesn't have enough fat on HER face to get a good picture," i looked at him all excited like he just told me! And then he says, "Well HE or SHE, whatever this baby is!" then he went on showing me the hands, and he says, "There are HIS little hands! There is HER little foot! See SHE is kicking you like crazy! Then there is HIS other leg!" back and forth he went so i am thinking oh he is just being a tease and he'll tell me after the ultrasound is over. He finishes up some of his notes and he goes down the list but never said anything about the sex of the baby! He begins to tell me that he is going to send the recorded video to the doctor and the pictures he took with the report he fills out and my doc will review it and tell me TOMORROW what i am having IF he can determine what i am having, if NOT i CAN"T FIND OUT UNTIL I HAVE THE BABY!!!! I was like, "WHAT?! are you kidding me?! I was mad, and i snapped at him and said, you were just looking at the baby, why can't you just tell me?! and he said again that he would send everything with the report to my doc and he'll tell me within 24 hours! I was mad and argued more then finally gave up! The guy was rude and a big jerk! I came home and cried for an hour! Finally calmed down and called me doctor and asked what was going on, i have never in my life have ever heard of this! He told me that's how they do it here and i will have to wait until friday to find out because he wont be in until then! I said No i want to know now! and he said i could just go to the place where i got the ultrasound and get a copy of the report the next day in the afternoon, so I went home empty handed, no video of the ultrasound, no pictures and no results on the sex no NOTHING! So i went to the ultrasound place the next day and got my copy of the report! I am still very upset about everything, i have been treated like i am an idiot and don't know anything, so i am in the process of finding another doctor.

BUT..... with the good news i DID find out what we are having! The Report says:


we're having a ................

A GIRL!!!!!! Yes that is right! I am having a girl! Finally!!!!! I am so so excited!!!! We all are!

So me and the boys went to the store and bought her a few things already!

I picked out these shoes and some cute onsies to match!

And Braiden picked out this Toy for her!

We are so happy and excited! I was shocked i am having a girl! I thought for sure i was having a boy! I guess i am used to expecting it! Josh is so happy he can't wait! She is going to be so so spoiled! She is the first girl for my parents so she is going to be even more spoiled with them! Josh and my Dad are suckers for little girls! It's going to be so much fun!

As far as names go....... Josh and I have had this name picked out for a while and we finally get to use it! Her name is going to be named after my mom and his mom!

and the name will be......

TessLea Anne Jarvis

Lea is after my mom and Anne is after Josh's mom and of course anyone else on each side of the families with those middle names! haha Sorry for the long story, but i hope you enjoyed reading my experience! It was terrible but i am just happy to know what we are having!!!!

Let the shopping begin!!!!!